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♔ Wednesday, June 29, 2011
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its raining
someone asked me, what will you do if someone makes you angry, or you are simply in a bad mood. how will you treat others? will you simply treat them as your mood inclines you towards?
my natural answer was of course, yes. im in a bad mood means im in a bad mood. why should i bother to put on a smiling front when i dun feel that way? but of course. i knew that the politically correct answer would be what some of my frens replied.
"no, I will simply tell them im in a bad mood."
"no, I will try to be nicer to others. afterall, its not their fault that im in a bad mood."
but i dun like to change just to compromise others. why must i force myself to smile and act like nothing's wrong? telling them im in a bad mood doesnt exactly gives me the right to unlease or vent my anger either. what use is telling ppl im in a bad mood? yeah it gives them a warning of sorts. so what? they can evade me? they can avoid unneccessary comments? sometimes, you just dun want to be disturbed. even if they keep quiet, give each other looks, give you that "buffer zone", its just going to irritate me even more. what difference is that from just being in a bad mood and letting them get the message themselves. its even more irritating if they start to question out of seeming sincerity whats wrong.
when im in a bad mood. every little thing annoys me. every small mistake irritates me. the negative thoughts just keep flowing. everything is just thrown into a negative light. can i help it? knowing it so doesnt impede or stop things the way they are.
its worse if people expect me to actually treat people who have nothing to do with my mood as per normal. tts just almost being a hypocrite. and its tiring.
ppl shd just get the message and give me the space i need.
i should try to be a better person.
