this is the most entertaining advertisement ever. hahaha!
change will soon take place.
whether it is a good change, bad change, or worse still, no change.. it is inevitable that it has to happen.
think it'll b rather beneficial to pen down thoughts of what is to happen now. it'll be interesting to look back down the road after things have taken place.
personally, i see this as a chance.. for a major overhaul. for things to really take on a new perspective and to chart a completely new road. but.. it would seem to me that.. there is still resistance to the change, and that is hindering the opportunity for change itself to manifest. for one still.. green, i probably do not completely understand the full implications of calling for change. but to me, it is always a new beginning and a start to strive for the better. what is holding us back.. is simply attachment. i do not deny that i do not feel it myself, despite the fact that the reason i chose this path was for.. something else, (actually i was not even aware!) it does have the effect of growing on oneself.
and for change... to be truly for the better, there has to be direction. There is an obvious direction.. but many do not like to see the big picture. and it is also difficult to see and identify with the big picture. it would seem that.. maybe i expect too much from this. that.. it will be difficult to achieve so much.. but then, will it lose its meaning, its necessity?
now, perhaps due to being unplugged from it all, i feel as if i am simply transiting with a change to form, not substance. but on second thoughts. change will take time. even more so for perspectives and mentalities to change. i remain my position that change is promising, and i will have faith. for nothing will result from the absence of faith.
♔ Tuesday, March 30, 2010
9:20 AM
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deleted the post.
cant see my tasks! still so much work. so little time left....
♔ Tuesday, March 16, 2010
10:19 PM
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many many tutorials to catch up.
i think i really really look forward to the holidays. even if it means i have to go back and work work work i think it at least beats this.
but. i dun feel as miserable as before already. and.. a little bit of motivation is kicking in.
alright. ikimashooooooou.
♔ Monday, March 15, 2010
1:24 AM
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its almost as if God wants me to stay in hall this sem.
but i wonder why.
tests falling on tues. inevitable driving on fri mornings. sat trainings. and now, incredible luck tt my loomie is still awake when i forgot to bring my hall key.
why must i stay in hall?
♔ Sunday, March 14, 2010
6:01 PM
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ah shyt. the deadline is tml. and i haven't thought of a single thing!
what can i talk about for 3 mins. that is supposed to be engaging, interesting..
:( crap.
je ne suis pas heureux et je ne voudrais pas exams.
ah. quite a long sentence.
♔ Wednesday, March 10, 2010
9:53 PM
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my back.. is officially sprained.
now even the pain in the ankle before pales in comparison!
actually, the ankle one didn't hurt that bad. onli looked quite bad.. so swollen. even now it is not fully back to normal yet. and just as i was worrying about it.. i had to go impact my back and hurt it by flipping and landing hard =.=
but that wasn't so bad. its just like some ache at the side if i bend down or lie against something.
but now. i feel like dying. i cant even stand up without feeling the pain.
this time realli is pain. the kind if-u-stand-up-too-fast-it-robs-u-of-ur-senses pain. i thought i onli experience that during aikido for wrist lock and shoulder lock. but now! i inflict myself. i wonder how to get out of bed tml. 0830 lesson somemore.
how liddat.
i think my body has grown WEAK over the years. little bit little bit injured already. or izzit my small frame. =.= but since i dun seem to increase in fats easily, the onli way to go should be increasing muscle mass right. and muscle should help to withstand large forces better right.
alright.
in conclusion, i need to visit the gym soon.
never realised u need back muscle for so many things.
[terribly sorry for the ramblings above but i do need to take my mind off the pain. written straight after aikido lesson with many waist bending which aggravated the strain.]
♔ 12:13 PM
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i'm looking forward to the holidays. when i can regain my freedom to do whatever i want.
okay. not really.
but still, i'll finally have the time to do the things i like. like, read a book. play with my turtle haha. go relax on an outing. take a holiday!! go running (very important) play basketball :) draw (haven't done that for a long time) .. .. ..
there seems to be so many things to do and it would seem that one month... may not suffice. but still.
i've got to work hard. so that i dun regret. so that i can fullly enjoy the holiday. so that i wun mull over my gpa over the long holiday.
i'm starting to gain back a bit of my motivation. ALTHOUGH the list below still looks extremely daunting.
but i'm going to clear it.
♔ Monday, March 08, 2010
10:24 PM
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Tutorials to be completed:
- Taylor Series Maths2 Tutorial(half) - Integration Maths2 Tutorial 1&2 T.T - Thermodynamics Chap 6 - Thermodynamics Chap 7 - Aerospace Materials Tutorial 4,5,6(?) - French (recent chap) (exercise from tb) - Tech comm Literature Review edit - Tech comm Minutes - Effective Comm speech - Lab report for Aerodynamics
Pending Tests: - Aero Mat Test 0903 :( - Maths 2 Test 1603
