maybe its really time to stop playing basketball with a running shoe. idiot. now i can't run. can't jump. dunno whether can climb stairs. and i thought the stupid thing will not grow.
why liddat :( now i'm lazy to even go get a drink from the kitchen.
♔ Saturday, January 30, 2010
10:20 AM
» lazzzzyyyy
i feel guilty.
i actually couldn't get up for aikido today. but i went for wednesday's session. :S
hmmm. hai, gotta make use of this time to do some productive work.
♔ Friday, January 29, 2010
11:05 AM
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stupid me.
how liddat.
♔ Thursday, January 28, 2010
8:23 PM
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i think in my next life, i want to be a cat.
then i can just lie around and sleep on the hot lazy afternoon.. sit in the middle of the futsal court and stone at night.. and when i'm hungry, i can just act cute and someone will feed me.
i think i've said it sometime before. but i still think its a good life as a cat.
now i must do the stupid thermo tutorial which i refuse to believe i cannot solve.. and i'm feeling a bit slow after one long day of lessons..
ah. but french lesson was interesting. haha. and the Kazakhstan guy is amazing as usual. He knows everything! sometimes i wonder, how do all these people have so much general knowledge. I.. know that i'm the typical ignorant person off the street who only reads or engages in things that concern or interest me. So, it might never be in my ability to understand how these people can learn about things that have almost absolutely no connection to them. who is the president of this country.. what is its capital... where is this country... how to know?!
and the french tutor shared his experience about him being a psychologist today. hahaa! totally different from what people will expect! but as a... "scientifically biased" person, i do agree with a statement he made. He said that he cannot say that spirits don't exist. afterall, no one knows and no one can prove it. but if somebody says a spirit exists, then it truly exists. [thats from the perspective of a psychologist. which i think makes sense]
haha, just an interesting thought. well, it might just apply to many things.. which i think will further serve the theory of "Perception is Reality".
Ever since my fren made that remark, [although i know he probably meant it as a casual passing remark] I cant get the thought out of my head. And its been for a month now. hahaa! rather lasting a thought.
but maybe its due to the fact that this "quote" came out in effective comm as well.. and the tutor actually said perception is not reality. hai. but i know she is just skimming it superficially. it is also not in her scope to debate such... whimsical statements. she seems too serious. :S
but back to what i was saying.
If you claim that you are not what you are, people around you PERCEIVE you to be that certain way, then it IS reality. If someone continues to claim that that perception by the masses is not reality.. that means to say.. he's defining reality himself. and isn't that living in his own world?
ah. sounds a bit confusing.
but i think i can derive that what is reality depends on who is defining that reality. Then perception will be reality.
i should elaborate. but i'm a bit lazy now to do that.
hahahaa! i think sometimes i just talk nonsense.
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♔ Wednesday, January 20, 2010
11:16 AM
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it is convenient to have a hall.
i thank God i have a hall this sem. if not i think i'll just die on the way back home.
no more rubbish timetable next sem onwards! can someone motivate me to do tutorials. i am like the laziest aero student around. not even touched tutorial until the day b4. how liddat.
♔ Sunday, January 17, 2010
10:46 PM
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end of holiday.
time to start studying.
need to get a better gpa. better one.
♔ Thursday, January 14, 2010
8:47 PM
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i.... just got myself a very crappy timetable. LESSON ENDS AT LATEST 2030?!!!
what am i thinking...........................
♔ Wednesday, January 13, 2010
7:57 PM
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vomit blood vomit blood
im vomitting blood.
♔ Sunday, January 10, 2010
11:36 PM
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sch starts tmlllll....
and all the rubbish will start all over again.
i'm first year, yet! i'm already saying all these. how liddat. please let me get my french elective! please please please! >.<
hai. my nose is a marathon runner.
hahaa, i was even thinking,
what if i come down with fever tml. i'll have to take mc! then i remembered. :D
well. first day of the new year, this is a start. A start to get me going... but still. i'm still feeling lazy. inspiration doesn't come by easily.
somehow. crossing over to the new year this time didn't feel any.. different.
but okay, this is like a routine that has to be completed- so how was 2009?
ever since i signed on the dotted line, i guess life has never been the same. i talked about not expecting so much consequences, but that was onli a small facet of a myriad of complexities.
Actually, things didn't change.
i guess i changed.
I dun see the world as it is the way i saw it before. Thoughts that never existed, exist now. Things i will never think so much about, i cant cease them now.
I sometimes wonder if it is a change for the better.
but i never regretted my decision. you can say i've not changed being stubborn, but i'm glad that some things took place the way it did. given another chance knowing what is to happen. i will still.. do it. foolish probably.
2009, i finished the remaining phase of my training and graduated. didn't think i would feel so happy throwing a stupid cap.
then came the transition phase. seriously needed a CCC (civilian conversion course). but i guess i'm coping better now.
my first NTU experience...
not really what i expected. but i guess thats to be expected.
suddenly experiencing freedom. hmm. has gotten me thinking.
then it happened. just when i least expected it. and life.. changed.
felt emptiness. killed something from within. ceased to think. forced to pick up and move on. as though nothing happened, for life still goes on.
exams came within weeks. still coping with the aftermath. first time in NTU i felt stress. was taking it perhaps a bit too easy until the last moment. first time i finished revision for some subjects on the actual day of the exam!
well. guess it kind of reflected in the results. but i guess i'm satisfied.
after exams. felt a bit happier. had fun. enjoyed.
last day of 2009. played bball. full court! experienced a fleeting moment of flight. but guess training in aikido helped to condition break fall relexes. escaped with a slight bruise.
back no longer impeded reaction! prata tasted good as always.
watch countdown and ended the year with the dazzling fireworks in the nightsky.
2010.
resolutions? well, the resolutions for 2009.. wasn't completely fulfilled in the first place.
hope it is not too tall an order, but i just wish to spend 2010 as a happier person.
